wrote this a long time ago so i might sound different — Oct. 24, 2023

I find it a bit hard to think why they like each other... I feel like the premises of the story is kinda weird like why are all the boys fonding over her because she's pretty and why is everyone treating her like a commodity but she's just so valuable that no one should have her, wait that's not commodity anymore more like a rarity. anyway, and then she saw Kawakami doesn't fond over her so she's interested in him, that works. But what exactly made Kawakami started like her? Also im very sorry every single time they call her shibazeki i cant help but think of shibal seki or whatever in korean.©

then when kawakami's friend received choco from mina and realized it's not girichoco and he started liking her or smth? which also didn't really make sense for me (ok i get it it's high school everyone's gotta have their doki doki moments) but like how do u just start liking someone after finding out that she likes you. then there's the kotoha girl, she likes kawakami i accept, but then she started kinda becoming interested in atohira because he did karate? is that the reason? i felt strange because is she just not over kawakami so she's finding a replacement... and then there's atohira, i rly dont like this guy, he's lowkey rude, why is everyone still friends with him...·

— sept 23. 2026

Finished watching season 3 of 100kanojo, lowkey pretty good and funny af. it always makes me laugh. rentaro deserves all of his gf purely cuz he is just that dedicated and i have no other objection. how does the author even remember all the details of each gf. also, how do they all have different archtypes without any repeating, i thnk thats whats crazy about the anime. we dont talk about the actual relationships between some of them because it's a comedy anime. but overal its hella funny i would watch s4. loveeeee the artstyle too it's very cute. i think i might like hahari the most/hakari. also the names kill me lmao. they have 17 gf now it's crazy. 'I am America kara kita desu!

— Sept. 26, 2026

it was very nice watch. I watched from s1 to s3 without break. I lowkey don't rly like it whenever they put a random big boss at the end of the show like a climax but then the boss was like they just stumble upon it and it just happens that this guy is very strong or smth.

like compared it to 铁拳教育 it was fine since it was kinda hinted at the beginning and then the mc actually has a connection to this guy. i mean techinically the boss in s1 and 2 are both hinted or more like you can just tell they're gonna be the bad guys but then esp s2 this guy doesnt rly have that much connection to the mc he just showed up and u can just tell he's bad cuz other wise why did he show up 😭

i guess then logically i would like s4 the most since they didnt put any super big boss at the end, i liked the 5v5 arc near the end but the at the very end in the military arc my guy, the bad guy is weakened in the car after it crashed into your comrade's car, you have another guy with you, you both go to help your in-car prob injured comrades and until the bad guy gets off and pulls out a gun on you you get ready to face him, couldn't you just have the other guy help the comrades and you go deal w the bad guy? like the reason why this would've just worked is because you got shot and then u grabbed the bad guy w u and jumped off the cliff. and then you start 煽情-ing but ur not dead cuz ur the mc, and of course he isn't like i guess it just didn't make sense uk, they jsut had to not deal with the bad guy first but wait for him to get ready back up but its fine, i hope theres a s4

— Sept 24

also there are live devils living in the basements right not paying rent for a very long time and my parents won the case and they are supposed to leave by themselves but they won't and we had to file an eviction order but they still wont leave nor pay rent of course so my parents are going to fight them verbally which i honestly dont know anymore. first of all last time it happened it got the police involved, as expected, because the beloved devils called teh police, and as the only fluent english speaker of the household i had to translate for both sides. and of course thepolice does absolutely fucking nothing cuz all they care about is crimes or physical fights so they tell us to lve the alone, thanks ♥ but of course my parents aren't satisfied with that so they love to go have a talk with them one sidedly. i cant be anymore stress and i really hope i cant be out of this. but being their family member and being part of this family somehow automatically makes me a part of this issue as well, i had to translate their "notice" to the tenants/devils, be the one to "protect" my mom, for what? im so done. i dont wanna do this anymore. please stop fighting. i hate this world (because i got dragged into this again since they got in a fight and my mom fell and police and ambulance was called and of course i was the translator, translating itself is fine, but i had to face the commanding and aggressive tones from both the police and my parents since i was not simply a translator, i had to listen to the police talk to me in a commanding tone saying "DO NOT LIE TO THE POLICE. OH THERES A CAMERA, NOW ARE YOU GONNA TELL ME IT DOESNT WORK. WHERE IS THE KEY, BECAUSE IF YOU HAVE THE KEYS YOU HAVE TO GIVE IT OTHERWISE ITS STEALING." i was not there at the scene so i was purely translating, my mom said she put the stuff outside the police: "THIS LOOKS LIKE ITS CLEARLY THROWN OUT, STOP LYING" mom: "it became like this because of the fight" the police just doesnt believe whatever we say and im the one hearing all of this and translating while my mom was feeling unwell, the devils call the police first. e ren xian gao zhuang. and i told my dad that like you dont want to be involed in an altercation cuz this might make the situation worse and right now its favoring them cuz they called the police first. my dad: thats why i told you to get your phone and call the police, i wasn't even at the scene, dont you have your phone with you? i dont have my phone right beside me 24/7 in my room but u were near the scene and you come to me to get a phone? why dont you call the police?

every time too, if i show any sign of tiredness or annoyance or not wanting to do this it's treated as if i dont want to help my parents, or idk my mom gets mad at me for showing this emotion. yes i might not want to help out cuz im tired of being in your problems when it honestly has no connection with me, rental is your business, i have no say in how you operate yet im here to translate for you, then you expect me to automatically accept this and help you willingly because i am blood-related to you and an "important family member" i won't forget about that, this to me sounds like you're saying that because i am an adult and part of this family now i am part of your issues that you know you might face due to renting business and all business has risks. i also sincerely don't understand the dynamics between my parents, it feels like because you're now married everything is shared property, my dad does rental business and he handles most of the communication and maintenance but my mom gets mad at me for showing tiredness after making many phone calls between my dad's tenant and my dad and a professional for a wasp nest at the property, many times. and showing any sign of tiredness is as if i dont want to help out. if you tell me to do it i still do it, but i cant show opposition because im your daughter.

my feelings are never heard. they're always dismissed and any tears is treated as weak, worthless. after i made the call for my dad and to the professional and to the tenant i cried a little, my own cycle will rotate between crying then sleep then wake up and i return to square one, my mom enters my room, sees my red eye and says what is there to cry? you're an imporant family member now, is your tears that worthless? what if i tell you that i hate living like this and i hate being here. i hate being dragged into this and i hate talking to people. talking to YOU, it's exhausting to try to communicate thoughts with you or my feelings or what happened at work or with friend or whatver, because i always feel like you don't really care. i really don't feel any sense of family. i was never the family-oriented person. and that's fine, i just wont tell you anything, lower my expectations. am i a masochist? why is it that i always feel like talking to you about things when i know the response won't be what I thought it will be, I know.

after the police incident too, i cried. it's scary, cuz one sec i thought my mom was gonna have health issues then im translating between my parents and the police while hearing their aggressiveness and going into the ambulance car and translating, good that there's no major health concerns. and thank you to the paramedics lady who asked me if i was okay, i almost cried again. i go back to my room after it's over, i cry. mom enters my room again, to show how she got a bump on her head which she doesn't know how it came to be, along with my dad. she saws my red eye, you cried? proceeded to discuss the incident with my dad in my room then left. what was the purpose? to show me the bump? like yes im concerned for your health, but can you ignore the fact that i might have cried if you're not gonna help with my crying situation? every time you see me cry you do nothing but put salt to the wound. why do that? just ignore me?

it's ok my friend told to accept that they won't try to understand you. it's ok i will just stop trying to ask them to think about my feeling since we're simply blood-related therefore we are living together and socializing otherwise you would normally never live with people who are 30yrs older than you because there's a difference in thought process since you're born at different times and different experience. just be immune to them. earn money, get a job, and get independent. i need to actually get a job after masters.